HeyThereISeeYou

I wish I was able to show you everything I have been able to create but I can’t maybe I can I wish I could promise to share with you all these things scattered about my room but I won't maybe I will I wish I had a way to express to you this pent up anything in all of me But I don’t maybe I do I wish I was able not much more than you is left I’ll salvage what I find I wish I could promise it’s not fair to either of us sometimes I hate when I’m right I wish I had a way there’s too much I can try

alive has never been able to cover it it being one of -what some would call- the most primitive feelings known it is elementary, fundamental basic everything that holds me, some guy together the whole foundation for my existence is it that alone still baffles me how something like it so primary so intrinsic could have remained intricately camouflaged for so long how did I never notice? It took a vast majority of my life for me to even catch a glimpse of it but then I did amongst tiny, death-wishing mammals and water dwellers given horrid directions between unlit, gravel lined cement strips and hypothetically misplaced foliage und

Dark falls early, this far north Storms start up, skewing time Hard to tell without sun and clocks’ misplaced purpose [the power goes out often, resetting rendered futile] Thunder ripples blood Disquiets bones Windows open Wait for the next cue Can suspense be deadly? Hm. Sky cracks, parallel dimension opened And in that split second, It was day.

Standing still I won’t look down Is there even an edge that I won’t look over I can’t tell I keep going forward towards this Somewhere I have been told that I’ll get to Eventually Sometimes I take the time to wonder who will be there and if I have to jump over a ledge that may not even exist to meet them I’m not sure I’ll keep pondering the existence of others in this place of nothing It is a long way off, yet And should I ever get there No One should be calling my name

I was never one with the crowd Not because I was ostracized Not because I was trying to make a change I just was there And that’s all that mattered I was always the new kid Everyone else had been there Since the beginning Whereas I skipped a level And got dumped in the middle I guess that is the price of being ahead Do not give me your pity Your apologies Your sympathy for my situation I don’t need it I need someone who can start with me Discover everything I may be a bit late I may be a bit old But at least I’ll have it Tell me I’m selfish For coveting that Which is not mine But who are you to judge When you w

It is the undeniable feeling of inescapable pursuit I see him her it I’m not sure who, exactly but I know whomever follows me is always there forever watching Yet I also seem to understand I will never be allowed contact Whomever this is either wants and cannot or can and is unsure of what will happen if acknowledgement will shatter whatever illusion both of us have created Perhaps one of us will disappear if we connect This entity who travels so close gifts me with glimpses out of the corner of my eye in reflections but never outside of Those portals so easily shattered from either side Is it I who follows them? Be this dance a mutual

Syllables skitter Words I cannot remember Lethalogica